what a surprise! -
NO TUNNEL! - it looks as if we opened a door and entered a room, a
chamber, a space, going through no corridor, no hall – BOOM! and we
are in the WHITE DUNGEON – well, I'm not so sure if “dungeon”
is the right word, probably it is not, but I will use it since it is
somehow related to tunnels, although the space we have just entered
has nothing to do with a tunnel – we are in the space which seems
to have no walls, no limits, no borders, no edges, no niches, no
aisles, no bays, no corners – just a huge, homogenous, vast space –
so, it seems to have nothing common with neither tunnels, nor
dungeons, except for one thing: you really can feel imprisoned
in this limitless space – it's strange, yet very interesting, that vastness and
limitlessness can be
so claustrophobic - I
don't know either, if the word vast
is the proper one – with no doubt this space is not small, but is
it really vast and huge? - some say it is not so vast and can be
crossed quite easily from one edge to the other with no special
effort, but nothing is said about these edges: where we should look
for them, what they are like, if they are walls or abrupt slopes or
just a simple barrier; nothing is said about how long it took to
reach these edges, whether it was tiring or exhausting, whether it
was just a walk or maybe they had to crawl in the very end of their
expedition, or maybe they went
there by bicycle... as if the
expression quite
easily was
clear enough and contained all
necessary information and needed no
further explanations, interpretations, consultations – the others
say this space can be grasped in no way meaning they themselves can't
grasp it, that it's out of their control, that they go and go and go
and go and go and nothing happens, there's no end, no end can be
seen, no end can be imagined, no end can be thought of, and they feel
like going round, making circles, or just mincing without moving
forward, so why they are so tired, so exhausted? why they are ready
to give up? why they feel defeated? - and between these extreme
evaluations there are plenty of medium and mixed ones; although the
word plenty
causes the same problems as the word vast,
listing them has no sense – however, if somebody listed these
problems, and was enough patient to study them, and would keep the
mind sharp enough till the end, and the ability to combine and join
things which seem to be impossible to be combined and joined, or to
synthesize, was not suppressed by the surfeit of insignificant
details, then he would notice, or could notice, two observations
mentioned in each report, two threads always present: one very clear
and easy to be followed, another rather unclear, weak, fragile,
worn-out – the first one concerns the lack of hills and valleys, in
fact the lack of any uneven, not smooth surface; nobody tells about
climbing or slipping down, nobody stumbles due to bumps or holes or
stones sticking up; however we wouldn't find in these reports any
statements referring directly to flatness, nobody mentions a smooth,
or even perfectly smooth surface, so smooth and flat that slippery,
which could be supposed to be the accident similar to sliding on a
polished floor – the other thread refers to rectangularity, but if
flatness, evenness and smoothness are referred to directly, the
rectangularity is only suggested, is a vague outline somewhere in the
background, results indirectly from the statements about straight
line edges, as well as from very rare suppositions that the edge
finally reached by somebody might have a shape of a corner – in
fact there is the third thread, so vague, that it can hardly be
consider a thread, however these sporadic and unclear remarks are
worrisome enough, and they should not be neglected, although there is
nothing alarming and fascinating in observations indicating that a
flat surface is not ideally flat, and smoothness of this surface is
sometimes disturbed almost imperceptibly – what can be more obvious
that impossibility to achieve the state of ideal perfectness? - and
one thing more: the lack of thread about capacity, about the volume;
nobody says absolutely nothing about the height, about the ceiling,
about the vault, about anything that might be above one's head, as if
this space has infinite capacity, or has no capacity at all, it means
capacity which can be felt physically, can make us feel suffocated -
- - - - so, the word dungeon is
absolutely inadequate – this
place seems to be the opposition,
the inverse of a dungeon, nobody be imprisoned, detained, kept in it,
since one can go anywhere, in any directions, however the lack of
limits and boundaries can cause slight concern, and, paradoxically,
the feeling of imprisonment – this slight concern can be
alarming; isn't this
light-hearted term covering an awkward
fear that we feel in the case of infinity as suppressing as the
crampedness of dark wet burrow? - maybe this is an ideal dungeon: how
can you run away from the space where there are no sides and
directions? so, maybe it's better not to enter this space, maybe it's
better to retreat, to step back, until we have not yet trespassed the
threshold, and our hands still can feel so familiar and friendly
materiality of the door <<<<
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